My room is full of my baby girl’s pictures and I look at them and watch patiently how she is growing and how happy she is. I have a five-year-old daughter who understands that her sister lives far away. I know that my baby has the best of worlds, a mother and a father who will cherish her as their own. I was very blessed in the decision I made. Even though some don't understand why I made adoption my decision, most of my family supports it. I love my baby girl and I am very blessed that the parents send me pictures and updates on how my child is growing into a beautiful, intelligent, healthy, adorable young woman, and her parents are young, vibrant, energetic, caring and most of all loving. God loves us very much and he blessed your life and your child. Adoption is a gift received, not taken away.
Remember you are not alone.
They say "with age, comes wisdom." For me it was a little different. With experience came my wisdom and all the little lessons my mother has been trying to pound into my head for the first 20 years of my life. I went through the life altering experience of getting pregnant and choosing to place my daughter for adoption last year.
Being a student in college and away from my parents and family I chose to keep it a secret. I kept myself cooped up and felt so lost. I was extremely depressed and didn't know what to do. I was given a phone number to an agency from my nurse to get the adoption underway seven months into my pregnancy.
My mind was fried and my heart under arrest. I finally got the courage and spoke with a wonderful woman named Yazmin. She made everything sound so simple and calmed my nerves. 24 hours later I received a phone call from one of the sweetest voices and dearest people I could have met at that time. Someone, who I will always consider to be a friend, Stacey Levine. This woman is so wonderful, from that moment on, I had my emotional back up handy. At the touch of my cell phone I could stop tears from coming and doubts from entering my mind. She was my therapy, my support group. She reminded me of how strong I am and the courageous decision I was making.
Being young and getting pregnant is an extremely difficult thing. Making the choice to give your child up for adoption after you carry her is even harder. When the big day finally came and my beautiful daughter was born and the papers had to be signed, I fell into a black hole. I felt lost all over again and like I was back at the beginning, alone and confused, sitting there while I heard my baby's life being read away destroyed me.
With the help of the wonderful crew at ACF I got the courage to lift my pen and give my beautiful angel a second and fair chance at life. She was placed into the arms of the most amazing and deserving family I think I have ever met. I couldn't have been happier with their decision in a family for my daughter. I still speak to them frequently and see pictures of the most gorgeous creature God ever placed into my arms. It been almost a year and I look back on my life and I'm so happy with myself. God puts some pretty heavy tasks into our hands at times. But he will never give us an obstacle we can't overcome. For me growing up and realizing the true value of life was long overdue. I can't say I would ever wish this upon anyone, but if you are faced with the same decisions I was, I would advise that you think twice and talk to someone. As a birth mother, ACF was my saving grace. I found the strength within me to move mountains and change my life and a few very special people's out there as well.Nancy,
This whole experience has been so hard for me and I was unsure if I could go through with it.But anytime I had a concern or even just wanted someone to talk to “ACF” was there. They made me feel I could trust them.They were there for my best interest and with any choice I made.I would say if it was any other agency I wouldn’t have been as comfortable as they made me feel, as they were my friends.I know my baby girl will always be taken care of. Thank you so much.
I'm so blessed for being led to you guys and to the adoptive parents. Sometimes I wish I could do it all over again. I wouldn't change anything. I would just take time out to fully take the experience in better. But I'm so happy the baby is truly loved by her adoptive parents. That's the true gift of life and love. I want to thank you for finding them for me. Make sure they know I'm still sending my love. I'm sure they love their new daughter so much. Surprisingly I’m doing well. It’s been rough, but God is there. Take care and continue to spread the gift of life and love across the world. You all are amazing people.